No. Please.. I can't

Anita asks me to take part in the skit, which is planned to initiate the fellow members to recognise the exaltation of independence. She doesn't know my problem. Probably you also don't know. I can do multiprocessing with exception of "stand" and "speak" processes at once. I told her the same. She says that the character will not stand but comfortably sits.

Why doesn't she understand? The problem is not to stand or to sit. Stand process, I meant is facing the gang which includes some, I never spoke to and when all are eager to entertain themselves, while i make fool of myself. I told her my decision that i will not take part in the skit. I know, she is hurt and probably thought, i have shown the attitude by turning down the request. I hope, she'll understand it has got nothing to do with attitude and it is my lameness that laid me back.

I remember my dreadful presentations in the past. I feel relaxed now, as they are over. Hopefully I would never have to do it again. I swear, I couldn't feel at ease with at least one even while the count kept increasing.

Sometimes, I try to make the bold appearance but the speaker inside me wobbles. May be the chemical that makes you orate is less in my Blood? That could be the thing which made me comfortable with my job where I don't have to do the sing and dance work (reporting) and this will be done by TL on my behalf.

Shock- 2

Though it's not more shocking than the Shock-1, which i missed to post here, it left me in a position to decide whether to enjoy the moment and be happy or to feel guilty for supporting a couple, who are going to give a life-time shock to their loving parents.

Nashi says she is happy, but I'm not sure if I'm as much happy as she is. I genuinely feel, it is being done in the wrong way. I'm not against love marriages and i never could be. For known/unknown reasons, i am not in consent with their ideas and not able to enjoy the sigh of relief when much anticipated marriage is over.

Whatever, Kicking out my ideology, I wish them a happy married life and not to get into any complications i am presuming.

Preponed friendship day

You pat me often and
wake me up from the reveries.

You care to listen
even when you get bored to death
to my palling stories of the past.

You prattle as much as me and
ready to play the silly games all night

Yet! Only you and me do know,
there is something unspoken
which will be cherished all the time.

Thank you, Friends.

Sigh no More

My moody mood, in its low, was not letting me to work any more for today. I, on self-help mission, was browsing afloat through this nice link sent by my colleague (SNORT, of course, he doesn't snort!). I liked this poem in all and I would love to copy it for you. I never knew before that Shakespeare did write something in a language, i could understand.

Sigh no more, ladies, sigh no more,

Men were deceivers ever;

One foot in sea, and one on shore,

To one thing constant never.

Then sigh not so,

But let them go,

And be you blith and bonny,

Converting all your sounds of woe

Into Hey nonny, nonny.

Sing no more ditties, sing no mo

Of dumps so dull and heavy;

The fraud of men was ever so,

Since summer first was leavy.

Then sigh not so,

But let them go,

And be you blith and bonny,

Converting all your sounds of woe

Into Hey nonny, nonny.

-- by William Shakespeare

PS: I don't have anything against MEN. So Men, you can change it however you like and read with gusto.

On revamp

Dear ones,

Excuse me, for i made you wait for almost 8 months Or otherwise, are you people happy for the escapades from this boring stuff? Whatever! You can't escape anymore. For now, don't ask me why i hid myself this long. Tall story!

I consider this ancient blog of mine as significant as everybody's first love. I might have written very stupid things and very stupidly. I just love that stupidity, as it is the one where i got the pleasure of expressing and struggled many times to show my vocab. a bit strong and sexy. I certainly felt longing for the inexplicable pleasure of blogging. The reason to be kateef with my blog doesn't seem reasonable. May be i just wanted to write, and the reason looked ridicule.

Today i take oath. "For whatever happens, I will write on." If you don't find at least one post a month, check in obituary column of any local news paper.

So you can waste your time whenever you feel like. Cheers.

A bad day turned into good

Yestermorning, pinni planned to go somewhere and left before me. She told me to give the key to a aunt who is a friendly neighbor to pinni. As pinni left, i locked the house and gave the key to that aunt. That time she was leaving to take bath. As I was walking to the bus stop, i suddenly remembered that i forgot to take my cell phone.. I ran back hoping she wouldn't get inside the bathroom. I rang the door bell. No.. it wasn't working. So I knocked the door. There was no reply. and soon i heard the sound of water. I stood there for about 10 minutes. and the water sound was stopped. So I knocked again.. no-reply. waited for two more minutes.. So i thought she didn't hear me. Then, i knocked again. Now she replied to wait for 1 more minute.

She opened the door and shouted at me for knocking the door. I explained her the reason.(which i have done very few times.. or never?) She gave the key back. She made a face of dog and told me to give the key to any other.

I felt very humiliated to face this unexpected blow up. This incident waxed my phobia of "think 1000 times before asking someone for help". I was badly hurt. I wept all the way to my office not even caring the pity looks of the people around.

In the evening, me and nashi met in central. we started with a sweet hug. This is how sweet, i feel to be with my friends.. We wandered there for more than half-an-hour.. and filled the stack of things to buy when we get more money. We left the place feeling It is not for people like us. Nashi was thirsty so we came out searching for a kiosk(of our range). We found a book shop and got in without a word. This time, we didn't feel all that we did in central. we selected our books. She paid for my books and i paid for hers. We got into the shop beside for snacks. spent some more time eating and drinking.. we left at 9.00pm with another sweet hug.

Me and nashi planned to meet atleast once in a month.. and this time, our meeting place will be that book shop. Everytime we meet, we should buy a book for others if the last month's book is finished. Good idea. Isn't it?

Happy Birthday To You..

Happy Birthday Yellows

You aren't as beautiful as of then.. but you got a special place in my assests.. more than the expensive gifts and the best compliments. Not too long, just for some more time.. stay with me to remind i was not badly detested.