The Butter

Man is obsessed with the sole desire to control others. He thinks.. the best he could do it is with wealth and the second best is an emotional trap.

Note: When I generalise things, they are more about myself.

Sasi

Sasi died in an accident and I am not missing him at all, save the times when I talk to my friends and they remind me how he used to be. I forgot everything he did. I forgot how close he was to me. Now, I am feeling bad as I am not able to feel sorry for him and his family. I have become stone-like. I remember, I was very worried, when chichikov's friend, whom I never met died in a similar accident. Seems like, I have got into the common view of life. Out of sight, out of mind. or have I started accepting death as inevitable for others?

Sasi was one of my closest friends in college. We played jolly many times and fought like kids and kept a "mirror on my side" when one of us is tired. He treats me like a sister and calls everyone he suspects to be in love with me or I am in love with as 'bava'. He gifted a magical pencil on my birthday to write what I wish. But I have never tried it. Last time, he spoke to me, he called me 'paakidaana' for not telling him something. I liked him very much when we were friends.

Sorry Sasi. I cannot figure out what brought this distance. It would have been better if we preferred fighting to being out of touch.

Fyodor Dostoevsky meets Anna Snitkina

Courtesy: 26 days in the life of Dostoevsky

The Handsome Villains

Ram and me are going on silent fight like school girls. Probably, he must have realized(thought) that I don't respect his intelligence like others do. But he is wrong, I really do. Ask Chichikov, how many times I wondered and felt jealous when he cracks a problem in 5 minutes on which I'd be working for 5 days. He belongs to the genius category. But I don't like him when he tries to humble himself 'acting' as an ordinary guy. I don't get how others can believe him when he does that. It is obviously not true. These days, we are being phony with each other. He never replies to my mails and doesn't share anything with me until asked even if it is very important for my work. I too stopped addressing my mails to him and he will just be one in the CC list. I am happy that, now I can officially report to Sreeram.

I am digressing too much from the title. Let me get back. Today Ram trapped me into assisting our customers without asking me. He clearly knows how I dread meeting them. I was scared but I didn't have an handy excuse. I was counting minutes to meet the scariest people I had to work with. My only consolation is that the main villain, Ashok would not be here and I just have to meet his entourage.. Tushar who keeps pinging with questions you have never bothered before, Dave who is not a frequent questioner, but pops up once in a while in a sarcastic way and Anil who quakes the mail server ferociously.

Ben came to drop me off at their office and we were waiting for Tushar in the reception area. I expected to see a middle aged person with his popped up tummy covered in his jacket. That is how I imagined him while reading his mails. I am surprised when a college dude in his T-shirt came and introduced himself as Tushar. I was shocked and couldn't hear what he was talking for about two minutes. I kept wondering if he is really the person who made my job pitiable to myself. He took me to Anil's office. I made a mistake again. The ferocious 'Anil' is very very attractive. He is accurately dark enough to be handsome and is with a perfect smile when he speaks. Suddenly Raj flashed on my mind. I was not ready to receive any more surprises. Tushar introduced me to Dave. I felt happy that atleast Dave is like how I expected him to be. Tall and strong. Once we got into the work, I observed that Dave is not really arrogant or sarcastic as he seems to be in his mails.. In-fact he is very meek and informative who tries to carry all the little details in his head. I was right about how he is.. but not what he is.

I was surprised that they are achieving higher performance with our product than what we advertise. After visiting their office, I realized that hardware and software are like a married couple. One should complement the other like in a jig-saw tooth. Only then, both would be appreciated on the long run. I also realized that experience is just an excuse. Everyone has a different experience-O-meter. It should just be set to fast forward to see the wonders one can do. Whatever.. from now on, I'll be replying to these handsome villains with certain amount of "special" interest. :P I certainly want to get back the honor I lost.

Statutory Note: Names are changed for confidential policies defined by home company and customers'.

Thanks

Kind words are easily spoken one can't even take them in their real sense these days and kind deeds are rarely done that they would seem to haunt you for life. Thanks to Anupama and Chetan who are constantly helping me here. After long, I got to learn something nice from others.

I'm loving it..

I am a stupid if I don't update my diary now when things are really exciting and when each mail in my mail box is opened with much anticipation. I' m lil' afraid but still enjoying to watch the war being in the battlefield and to choose the side while tapping my chin.

I don't remember if I have updated you all about one of our customers chopping and then crushing me to nothing few days ago. I didn't hear any word from anyone regarding that inside the house except Narayan's verbal consolation. They either might have believed what I'm accused of or I am considered a machine.

Now when things are much better in control, when everybody is anxious to grab a piece of accountability, the universal villain comes again with a fire bug along with a bunch of specially chosen humiliating words. Ha Ha.. All of the sudden, everybody drops off the dear one and starts accusing each other. People who can't show fingers at will start giving lame excuses and workarounds. This is the most fun part.

Thanks to the Super Villain for bringing the hero out of everybody in the team.

Boo Radley - 2

Irony is, Boo Radley to whom I wished all the bad things comes to my office to say

"Had your lunch? If you need anything don't hesitate, just call me I will be
either in my office or in the lab. Take care."

I don't know whether he would remember that he told me this, but I felt ashamed of my prejudice.