Thursday, January 12, 2006

after all, a girl is a girl

I didn't want to go out, but i couldn't refuse, I was meeting them after a very long time and i truly want to spend time with them but not outside. They planned for a movie, Thank god. it was cancelled. So they changed the plan to Godavari Road cum Rail Bridge. What could i do? I told my mother, that i was going out with them, She looked at me for a moment. I could see everything, she didn't say, but she wanted to. She didn't want me to go but she said "Go, but come early". I tried to tell her something, but stopped. I changed my dress(her fav. dress) to cool her.
It was not the same feeling, i usually get when i am there at river. I was tensed abt my mother. I didn't hear many of the things they said. I was lost at home. Every moment, I was reminded of my mother's fear for sending me with 4 boys. It was 8.00pm. But none of them were concerned abt me. That was all because of me. I never behaved like a girl. Sasi gave me the title "MAN in WOMEN" and I was proud of that. Stupid me. I wanted to go home and hug my mother before she calls me. At around 8.15pm, one of the four told me to go and it was very late. Thanks. Atleast one remembered me. I dropped my friend at kkd bus stop, which is near to my house.
Atlast, I was going home. but I lost my way in the dark streets. some boys were shouting as they were mad. I thought of calling my dad. i felt It was silly. I found one landmark-women's college, but i didn't know which side is that. Finally i called my dad, He & sandhya were coming from the hospital. My father gave me some directions and he came. I was back to home by 9.20pm. Mom was lying on sofa. I hugged her to know the status. She just pushed me away. I thought, It was not better to disturb her. My sister was also angry with me. Next day, I expected my mother wouldn't talk with me. but she was normal. That day i was leaving for hostel. I went into kitchen to say her "bye". She hugged and told me two things..

1. not to do friendship with boys
2. not to roam outside

2 comments:

Yasaswi said...

- b a roman while u r in rome
- stand in others shoes and think wut they gonna think if u do a deed.
- bein a guy or gal shudnt stop u to do wut u wanna do
- jus luv wuttever u do, and if think u wont luv it, then dont do

Tehzeeb said...

can i know what did u learnt from this????