Nari alias Kashyap

Though i have many male friends and they are equally and sometimes more close to me than the best of my girl friends.. I could feel a noticable pull back of my feelings before them. and i will take my feelings through many levels of filtration. This may be possibly because of the natural reciprocation..

But late in my life.. I found this guy, Kashyap. impressively simple. You can find out just seeing him that he is not simple just for the sake of impressing. The best thing i like about him is he will not wear a mask as most of us do. He can confess. He can share the silliest things of his life. He can laugh. He can make you laugh. He can pull the child out of him.

I was not used to believe in blind friendship.. but now i do. I came to know it is not the way we become friends is important.. and WE are important.. He is someone you can catch up any time and let your heart out.. He will never make you uncomfortable digging in personal life.. He just thinks.. we are together.. That is the happiest thing.. and nothing else matters..

When he is with me.. I feel, we are friends from ages and there is nothing more to share.. everything is just to be remembered.. our first meeting, next and next.. and our cross chemistry.

I still have his humble mail confessing that he is not really Kashyap and he is Narayana Murthy(Nari).
Thank you so much Nari. I am so happy that our life roads crossed. Mistakes are sometimes good.. Otherwise i would have missed such a good friend.

Results are out...

but not the consequences..

I expected it all... but still sticked on. That was my nature. but not any more. I could see no point still pinning deep. and that isn't the purpose of me being here.

Nashi.. this time silas is wrong.. Pain is not good. It was more than the worst times i ever have had. but I am not even able to taste that tingle in this pain. It is flat. It is tasteless.

Many have asked me the difficult questions.. still i could answer them not thinking twice. and so you say i am tough. But this time, I was dying to take this decision. Shall i be myself being selfish and stone-like? or do i need to pay the price back and compromise?

Will i be able to stand if i make the second choice? Can i fight with myself which i always found harder than fighting with any else?

My modest dreams of yesterday...

walking barefeet in the rain when i was just allowed to peep through the window.
hoping my b'day never falls on sunday..
sitting on the soft cushioned sofas..
to touch the sky and pick the stars.. meaning it literally.
for a longer summer vacation filled with fun and mischief..
to become someone(I didn't know what), but someone rich enough - to invite my rich friends home.
and many more...(to be added)

There you are...

There you are... smiling like an angel, me... lured by a magic magnet.
There you are... glad and grinning, me... left throbbed.
There you are... aiming for the heights, me... nothing beyond your love.
There you are... walking on the moon, me... excited at every glimpse of him.
There you are... placid and proud, me.. blurred in the crowd.
There you are... not caring to look back, me... wondering where i left myself.
There you are... reading this post, me... hoping that you would re-read to know the veiled.

T_ _ _s

I accept you are the last I consider
when I am down in the dumps even knowing --you are my only solace

Today I suddenly realized the need to acknowledge you,
when you seem to be angry with me as you are away when I need you.
who used to be my forever friend when I miss the world.

I never told you that I like you, but I really do
when you are with me and when you touch me on my cheeks
and like you more when the rock inside melts down
and more when you make me feel alive.

Promise me that you accompany me when I need you.
Please promise me but not like the liars do.

Friend

I defined "disgusting" for you, but you defined "friendship" for me.

Thanks. I am grateful to you.

shameless

Here, everyone writes blogs on equality of sex and woman. They feel, everyone is impressed by the way they are. But when it comes to execution, they are more stupid and sticky to what they have learnt from the male chauvinists. They have a big list of not-to-do s for girls... Really i am not lying. A girl can't go out with her male friends because it is also in their list. She shouldn't be emotional untill they themselves want her to be. They call it Patience- virtue of woman, They keep their cool even when she cries to the sky. They say, they are bold. In the end, if she wants to get some change to herself, they will ask "WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?". Why did she allow those senseless fools to ask her that question?